A few weeks ago, I sat across my friend at lunch and shared with her how weary I’ve been feeling and that I’m struggling to bring that before The Lord. She then asked, “How do you think the Lord is viewing you?” I started crying, knowing that even though I know in my head how He views me, in my heart I believed that He was annoyed with me for always coming to Him with the same struggles. For that reason, I didn’t feel the freedom or desire to come before Him.
When I started college, God met me where I was at and I was pierced by the Gospel. My life has been changed ever since. The more I walk with Jesus, the more I see my constant need for Him and His power in my life. I’m humbled as I still struggle with relying on my own strength. I know that I can’t earn His love or approval, but when I take a step back, I often find myself living that way. Yet God is changing my heart and reminding me where my identity lies. In Him and His Gospel. Not in my works.
We all grieve at one time or another. Sometimes we grieve because a friendship or significant other has left our lives. Sometimes we grieve because someone we knew or cared about has passed away. Lately, majority of the world has been grieving for our Country as we’ve seen and heard of gruesome attacks on the innocent lives of people. We don’t necessarily need to know these people personally to grieve for the hardship and loss that people experience.