When you realize again that what you do is not who you are

By 9 A.M. all manner of positive thinking has gone out the window.  I’ve got 3 patients arriving at the same time, orders weren’t put in correctly for a patient (again…)  doctors are irritated for no apparent reason, I can’t get an IV started on a patient, and we’re short staffed and don’t have coverage for breakfast breaks.  (“Hangry” is a real thing, people!)

Yes, I do take care of people, meet them in a vulnerable place, and comfort them before heading into surgery.  Yes, I’ve witnessed some of the coolest medical anomalies ever, including a 76 pound tumor get safely removed from a woman’s abdomen.  But many days I come home wondering if any of it really mattered.  If I really made a difference at all.  I think, “God, are you here?  Where are you in the midst of all this craziness, pressure, sickness and negativity? I need to be helped too.”

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When God Says No

I’m upset.  I’m straight up sobbing, lying on the floor, kicking and screaming, full-blown toddler tantrum upset.  I asked God for something.  I asked Him for a miracle.  I prayed for something that I couldn’t believe wasn’t according to His plan (1 John 5:14).  I asked Him for something that I knew I could use […]

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More Than Enough

To kick off 2017, I was encouraged by one of my friends to join her in a 21-day fast. Since I had never fasted before, I did not know what to expect, but my hope was to experience more of Christ in my life.

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What in the world does it mean to fear God?

If I’m asking this question, and you have the same question, we can pretty much be sure of this: we probably don’t fear God rightly. “This is the end of the matter. All has been heard. Fear God, and keep his commandments, for this is the whole duty of man.” (Ecclesiastes 12:13, emphasis added) “He […]

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We’re a Messy Church

When I first started reading the Bible, I was very confused about some of the great people of faith doing questionable things. Why were these people (I thought) I was supposed to look up to morally committing such terrible sins? Was the Bible condoning these atrocious things they did? Why were people offering up their […]

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Losing the Forest for the Trees

Have you ever been so caught up in the details of a thing that you miss the big picture?  Have you been so focused on checking things off a list that you miss why you have the list to begin with?  Do you feel overwhelmed with the “to do” and forget what “is finished?”  If […]

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How do I make a difference?

“This is the evil in everything that happens under the sun: The same destiny overtakes all. The hearts of people, moreover, are full of evil and there is madness in their hearts while they live, and afterward they join the dead.” (Ecclesiastes 9:3, emphasis added)

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Jesus Wants to Flip the Tables In Our Hearts

With Valentine’s Day just around the corner, I can’t help but pause and remember one year in my college bible study when we made each other valentines with bible verses. At the time the popular verse rang so dear to me since I was so new in my faith. But now that I’ve grown in […]

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Despised Things Made Loved

“Brothers and sisters, think of what you were when you were called. Not many of you were wise by human standards; not many were influential; not many were of noble birth. But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the […]

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